
I first realized I had a problem when I went back into the kitchen to "hunt" for chocolate for the fourth time that day, even though I KNEW there wasn't any chocolate... I'm not sure how long I've been doing that, because I didn't realize it till just then when I was VERY frustrated that there was no chocolate and that I was looking AGAIN! That was about 2 years ago. I still do this occasionally but I usually stop myself before I go looking.
Well, I've decided I need to do better than just stopping myself from looking for the fourth time.
Last week while reading the talks from this last general conference I read something that REALLY stood out to me: "...addiction is the craving of the natural man, it can never be satisfied. It is an insatiable appetite." (Elder Hales)
At first I thought to myself ‘This REALLY stinks! You mean to tell me that I will never be happy with the amount of chocolate I eat.” Then my second thought was, “Ok, yeah its true.” After thinking about the ridiculous amounts of chocolate I can eat in one sitting, I realized I’m NEVER satisfied afterwards, I’m either sick or still wanting more chocolate! Those apostles sure know what they are talking about.
I don’t consider myself fat, however, if I continue to eat chocolate at the rate that I am I will be… especially since I just had a baby and I don’t have my “young girly figure” anymore.
SO! I am going to stop here and now eating so much chocolate. I don’t think I am ready to stop cold turkey; I have decided that chocolate is for special occasions only. AND that if I can’t control it I will just have to stop cold turkey and say NO MORE! I had a friend’s mom tell me that she no longer eats chocolate because once she started she couldn’t stop so it was just easier to just not start… but quite frankly the thought of NO chocolate at all
terrifies me.
Because of my new goal (only to eat chocolate on special occasions) I ask that you do not send chocolate, bring chocolate over or tempt me in anyway! For you other chocolaholics out there, just check my blog, I'm sure some time soon I will be starting a support group!
After talking about chocolate so much I think I will go and get a chocolate chip cookie! Did I say I was going to stop here and now?? I meant
tomorrow!